Did the regular chores with kids. Came up with a new song idea while I was at it. Basic morning routine.
Around 8:30 AM I started moving faster, the chores of vacuuming and washing the floor, hanging the laundry and replacing a light switch were done easily with no internal fights.
Then I prerecorded some drums for the new song. Went to the car and checked oil levels. All this with no internal struggle.
The thing is, its already 10:00 AM and I don't feel it internally, in my head, as I used to with 60 mg of Ritalin LA.
So I have a surge in productivity without feeling medicated. This happened couple of days when I was on 40mg of Ritalin LA but it stopped at some point.
Now I have to see how the day will continue. Maybe it didn't kick in yet and I just have a great day regardless. It happened many times before.
After 6 hours: I seem to have the focus and I kept it for 10 hours. I have to get up more and stretch, I got weird aches because of sitting still too long. I don't feel the focus like I did on Ritalin LA but I observe it when I'm already on task for an hour. It's a thought "Damn! I wouldn't be sitting like this in a normal situation"
The end of the day was fantastic, I had a great mood and no depressing thoughts. I didn't give the depressing thought too much consideration in the past 2 weeks because it is common for me to feel a bit down or concerned at the end of the day. But now I see some contrast.
I hope this is the effect of the meds and just another period of unjustified good feeling mixing with my observations.
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